So the MissingMinds community is growing quite a bit. We are at 836 subs which is great. Things are starting to look up with that.
We now have 6 patrons on Patreon for a total of $67. Which is awesome. I have a goal that if we get Patreon at $1000 that I can make doing youtube and art and the community my FULL TIME JOB. Now I don’t expect that to happen anytime soon. Odds are I’ll become successful enough on youtube to do that. But This will certainly make it concrete. It’s a ridiculous goal but shoot for the stars and see where you land.
That’s pretty much it when it comes things I have been working my ass off for. And this is great news.
So naturally I start to lose the use of both legs. In two days I have fallen down from weakness and and gun shot like pain at least 5 times. And it’s not like, “Oh I think my leg is giving way.” it’s BAM ground. My health in terms of sickness is still declining. I’ve been having head colds, stomach bugs, intestine issues, and this tingle all over my body. Never had the tingle, and last time that happened I started having panic attacks from absolutely nothing. Last time that happened I went to the hospital 3 times in two weeks because we thought I was having a legit heart attack. Heart disease runs in my family.
I am the freaking bastion of health aren’t I?
So it’s been hard to do much of anything, let alone try to make better videos.
And on top of that my family has been forcing me to do insane amounts of physical labor. Now two years ago I would have been fine doing this stuff but in my current state it’s insane.
To put it in perspective, for me to just walk for 10 minutes is equal to the strain on my body as trying to sprint a mile without training. I become exhausted and my pain sky rockets.
So having to do things like clean a 10,000 square foot house or shovel mulch or dig up weeds or operate a little tiller that was a bitch to operate when I was physically able….
Yeah I’m fucking exhausted by 5pm at the latest. Near numbing fatigue.
So that’s getting in the way of making content for you guys. And it makes me want to get out of this house all the sooner. But I’m still stuck and will be for a while.
So yeah, things are going pretty smoothly with MissingMinds but I don’t know how long I can keep doing this. Not like I want to give up kind of way but physically unable to do it. Which is sad cuz all I have to do is sit here and draw or play games or edit stuff. So it’s not that physically demanding which pisses me off when I’m too tired to do it.
Also for some reason my depression has been going crazy. It’s borderline Bi-polar how my personality will shift. Which is terrifying because being Bi-Polar is a really really really rough thing to deal with. Not that I think I am becoming that, it’s just almost that drastic of change.
And this is the part where I hate myself for bitching about my problems to you guys. Sounding all sorts of pathetic and I feel like more people will just be annoyed by my posts begging for help. Though I don’t know what else to do. You guys are the only ones at this point that can help me get out of this rut or at least make a path to it.
By helping support MissingMinds, developing the community and making it stronger.
By supporting it through views, shares, comments, and becoming patrons.
I will do my best to give you what you deserve, better videos, more videos, more stupid stuff I think up. So help support the channel, the community, the sooner this can be my life the sooner I can turn around and give back to you guys.
Just as a reminder I’m going to leave a video that explains what I’m wanting to turn the channel into.
In detail how you can help the channel is:
- Become a patron on Patreon for as little as $1 a month
- Subscriber to the MissingMinds channel
- Commission me to do a drawing or painting for you. Prices here.
- Follow me on Twitch for the Live recordings of Twitchin n Streamin
- (IF YOU WANT) You can donate to me via Paypal. Link is on my tumblr page.
- Share the MissingMinds youtube videos
- Buy some cool merch from my Redbubble.